Disease of the Month

Ok. time to journal about my frustrations. I haven't been sharing with you ladies like I should be, so it's time.

This is going to be short and not-so-sweet because i think it'll take me a few entries to process all my thoughts.

Everyone remember about the saga of the brain tumor this summer while IN (short for IdiotNuts) was in Cali? So that was August.

Since then he's:

* Pulled the Suicidal Card.
* Went through full testing for Hodgekin's Disease
* Suggested that he had lung cancer and went through full testing for that.
* Said that sometime's he falls down and can't get up (yeah, yeah. i chuckled at that one too)
* And now.... He's being tested for Lupus.

That's just what I need. For him to have a disease that can't really be fully diagnosed. To quote a special person in my life, "I doubt he has a disease in which 90% of those afflicted with it are women and affects minorities more than caucasians. But, Hey. He's always been a special guy." Everytime I read her response I am pulled back into reality at just how full of drama he is.

Oh. and let's not forget that just in the time that I've known him, he was bipolar, had PTSD, went through emdr therapy to manage his traumatic childhood (huh????), had been sober for 15 years, got drunk for 2, and now sober for 4. Had full neurological testing for Epilepsy/Petit Mal seizures. Had PTSD for being abused in his first marriage. Consistently depressed. and on blood pressure medicine.

I'm too embarrassed to even write much more. I consider it nothing less than a miracle and a divine intervention that got me outta there.