Theme Song

Life is good. I am happy. =)

I'm Free by Jon Secada

Do you see what I see

A rainbow shining over us

In the middle of a hopeless storm

Sometimes I'm blinded by my feelings

And I can't see beyond my troubled mind

Afraid of what I'll find

The story of our lives

But there's tomorrow.

[Chorus]

Cause I'm free, I'm free

And things are only as important

As I want them to be

We'll have a breath of sunshine

When the rain goes away

I pray, I pray.

Do you need a friend right now

In the road that you're going to

If you get lost just call me I'll be there

Yes I'll be right there

Cause though I may not have the answer

At least I know what I'm looking for.

Yes I can do without sorrow

There's a day after tomorrow

So I'm leaving behind.

[Chorus]

I'm free, I'm free

And things are only as important

As I want them to be

We'll have a breath of sunshine

When the rain goes away

I pray, I pray.

And if you want to share my dreams

Well all you have to do is say it, say it

Let me hear you loud and clear

Cause I need you if you wanna be, if you wanna be.

Do you see what I see

A rainbow shining over us

In the middle of a hopeless storm

We'll be safe and warm.

[Repeat chorus]

Miracles DO Happen!!!!

Rachel decided that vacuuming was a lot of fun. enuff said.

It is Finished!

That's an old petra song that has been gleefully running through my head. It is FINISHED!



The divorce is final and the chaos has just begun. Divorced one whole day and he skips a support payment. NOT a surprise. Dealing with his NPD is like a little cup of chaos every day. and you don't know if it's going to fresh or spoiled, sweet or bitter.



Today it was bitter. Seemed like I had this huge button on my chest that said, "PUSH ME".



Here are the two quotes from him that pushed that button hard:




"You're just attacking, now, with whatever you think might cause the most pain. Well, trust me. My life, today, is every bit as hellish as you wished it to be; and it's not getting better. At least you can be grateful for that."

and

"Thank you so much for your cooperation and understanding, Sula. Did you learn those at church?"




WHAT-E-V-E-R.



Someone needs to warn his new girlfriend that he's already got a personal add looking for a new squeeze out in California. Heck, I may do it just for fun!

Yesterday when I got home from the courthouse (done at 8:45 and they don't usually start till 9 - first in line, baby!) I put in the Jon Secada CD (that i wasn't allowed to listen to because it wasn't high quality music - pssshhhhhhhwwwwww) and played the I'm Free song as loud as i could dancing in a circle happy as could be. The girls joined me and we all danced in a circle. My girls know that things will be better because mommy is now much much happier.

I haven't blogged in over a year because of the flow of information, but Baby, I'm back! I'll have to make a list of my characters with their bloggynicknames so anyone who doesn't have anything better to do that's reading this Surviving-We-Three will have some sort of clue who they are to me!

More beginnings later. it's night night time now!

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO glad to be back!